An age old tussle

She is back to square one. Same age old question.. what does a girl who is going to get married think? How many myriad thoughts cross her mind? She is terrified like hell. She sees her friends who are already married and things scare the hell out of her. She thinks how she is going to manage everything. How would she adjust in someone else’s system?? How she would let some one else become whole and sole of her life. She knows she is a person for whom there would be no turning back. This would be final. The ultimate commitment. She would almost worship the person she marries. And giving that power to someone scares her. Would he care for her the way she would for him??

And amidst all, she is waiting for a leaf to turn. She is waiting for the new chapter of her life. She might have made many mistakes. But just this once she wants it to be perfect. doesen't matter if every thing else becomes ruined. Just this should be picture perfect. She dreams and then she fears how different would be her dreams from hard core reality? She tries to paint a rosy picture and she wonders if it would be like this or would it be something she would not be able to live with? And then she says, whoa! nothing ever is picture perfect and she is expecting way to much. But then is it really too much to ask for a happy married life?
And here comes anticipation. Time would tell..